Rainbow road

Wouldn't it be wonderful if roads were a rainbow, with multicolored lanes taking us safely to our destinations? Everyone driving safely and respecting the speed limit, giving others the right of way. Everyone greeting, nodding, and waving to each other happily as we pass each other? Well that can only exist in a Disney fairytale. In reality, roads are a war zone, with worn out, cement paved roads, drivers weaving in and out of traffic, speeders flying past you if you are not driving at their convenience. Once they pull up next to you, they flick you off with their middle finger. Lovely, lovely citizens of Florida.

I'm not going to lie and say that I've never done that before. I am also guilty of road rage and not driving safely. But are we going a little over board with us not being patient and caring for others? In December of 2008, I was driving a car that belonged to my boss when suddenly I see that car in front of me aggressively coming to a halt. I almost didn't make it but I safely came to a stop. Not knowing what was about to happen, In a split second, I suddenly felt something massive pushing me into the car in front of me. All because the person that was two cars up decided to make an illegal u-turn causing a 3 car collision. Of course that asshole ran from the scene of the accident and went on about his selfish life.

Haven't you ever wondered if you ever accidentally made a situation like this happen to others? All because of impatience and pure selfishness? Maybe texting and driving? Did you know that a car crash can happen in a fraction of a second? Even today I almost ran a red light because I was looking up a contact on my phone. It just seems like it's so easy for something to go wrong and sadly it's true but we need to be responsible for our actions. A car is a weapon and if you use it the wrong way you will be prosecuted even if it is an accident. I know it's hard since we live on this "give me everything right now" world. And frankly we don't have the time to actually even make a real meal at home. So we rush. Rush because we don't have the time, and so we rush to work, rush to do our errands, and rush down the road.

So what is our solution? Just give yourself time, be patient, think of others, and think of the consequences. Because any little decision can change your life.

Xoxo Paula

McD's worker... that's a no

Once upon a Wednesday, I just couldn't believe that in the middle of a busy week I was basically harassed and violated at McDonald's. (Note to everyone, I was not on the drive-thru for me). So there I was, fabulously dressed in black footed leggings, a black dress, a red and black peacoat, and matching red flats with gold plated decor. My hair carefully teased to perfection held by a yellow Truly Glamorous Headband drenched in Swarovski crystals. When I pull up to the 2nd window to grab the food, I was sitting patiently in my Mercedes-Benz, putting away my Juicy Couture wallet when i heard a rancid sound.

Pssttttt, ppsssttttt, pssssssssttttt.... I ignored it. I didn't want to look. I could already imagine the annoying low-life that wanted my attention. Pssttttt, ppsssttttt, pssssssssttttt.... I heard it again. I took a deep angered breath, softly clenching my teeth, and I slowly turned my head to my left. There he was, a McDonald's worker putting burgers and fries into a paper bag while staring at me, giving that so-called sexy eye look, that other brainless girls have obviously fell for before. My eyes squinted as if they have been burned in acid. I immediately looked forward. I couldn't help but to give this futile man a nasty look. I could see him from the corner of my eye still smiling at me. Probably hoping for me to give out my number..... That was it.....

Now, seriously? What type of clown hisses at a girl to get her attention? Not only that, but he was trying to "holler" at girls in his own work time. How desperate. I'm more than sure that I wasn't the only girl he did that to. Obviously it worked for him before so he wanted to see if anymore senseless girls would fall into his trap. His phone's address book filled with numbers of girls he met at McDonald's, I'm sure. Calling them only for a fuck. Ewww... if it is that easy for these girls to get with a man like that, they have probably been around the block a few times. And so there is a higher chance of an STD's flowing around these heavily sexual used people. Men that are looking for real love and for their future wife DON'T hiss at girls at a McDonald's drive-thru.

And I'm not trying to be a bitch, but seriously? Why would a girl like me want to get with a useless low-life like him? Didn't he physically see that a girl like me would never want to be with a man like that? He just needs to stay in his field of girls and not go out of his league. I seriously hope that his was a burn to his cocky self-esteem. I will take my European man with a side of respect thank you very much!

Testing!

Just testing from my itouch to see if it works!

Now I can blog from where ever!!! Yay!

What do American Girls Like?

So the other night I was doing a little research online when I came across this website where they talked about what American girls like. My 1st reaction was laughter. I couldn't stop reading the perfectly designed list of examples that I could relate to as my everyday thinking. And if it wasn't me, it was definitely one of my friends. Have they really figured us out? Do they really think that we are these absent minded vast and shallow people?

The 1st example of what an average American girl like is "#1 Themed Parties" and it quotes, "A perfect opportunity to demonstrate creativity and uniqueness, but most of all some skin. Especially for Halloween. Preparation process is at least as valuable as the party itself". This sounded all so familiar and so true because I have definitely been there. So i searched through my tiny pink filing cabinets of my thoughts. Of course! How can i forget... my favorite movie! Mean girls, and they quote "In Girl World, Halloween is the one night a year when girls can dress like a total slut and no other girl can say anything about it"

Cast of Mean Girls in their Halloween outfits

Me in my halloween outfit

As I read down the list another one that caught my attention was shoes, preferably Manolo Blahnik to be like Carrie Bradshaw. And if you don't know who Carrie Bradshaw is, then you are automatically disliked just a tiny bit because omg, HOW can you not watch Sex & The City? See how this all ties in together? And yes I will say it again, this is what the people outside of American Life see us as. But you know what. I will not allow myself to be labeled under anything. I CAN relate to some of these things on this list, I do have gay friends, I do love shoes, I do love singing, ugg boots, new dresses, going to the bathroom in groups, and New York City. But it doesn't make me like the girl next door. I have my own activities and I have so many talents that most of these girls can't do. Just like on my last blog, I an not a cookie cutter persona that will be molded into what society wants me to be. I enjoy things in my own personal matter with my friend and family. And to those "American Girls", I'm just happy for them to be that cookie cutter because then I wouldn't stand out. And I do. I am not that fake pretty that "American Boys" like. I am that strangely beautiful girl that you don't know why I seem to be so attractive. I am not part of a norm and I hope that you (my reader) will realize it too.

Here is the full list http://girls.yury.name/

Weight does NOT have to be an issue

So a couple of months ago my sister and I started to go to Barnes & Noble for fun and coffee and we made it a weekly thing. I got caught up reading a book about Crystal Renn and her story of how she became a plus sized model. Actually I don't even like reading books! I'm just the type to look at pictures and get inspired for all my different projects going on in my head. But this one definitely caught my attention since it was about eating disorders and fashion. I could relate to both. It was the 1st book I read from cover to cover since high school (7 years ago) and i must say that it changed my mind about many things.

This book taught me to love my body the way that it is and that real women like me are beautiful. We don't have to follow this so called cookie cutter pattern of what beautiful women should be. I mean seriously, if a man wants to date a woman with a small frame, no curves, and bones, then they can date a boy. Anyways, I fell in love with Crystal Renn and a part of me wanted to be more like her. She was not the norm. There is just something so sensual about the way she posed in her pictures, and she seemed extremely happy after her dark (thin) era.

Ever heard anyone say that fat people are jolly, and happier than skinny people? In a way it is true if you think about it! Santa claus is fat and jolly! And you know that chubby grandmother that always bakes cookies and makes yummy cupcakes? Yeaaa she is always happy too! Food makes them happy so why can't it make YOU happy?

Then there are your thin mean people. When Meryl Streep portrayed that mean woman that everyone disliked in 'The Devil Wears Prada' umm yea she was a real bitch! It was probably because she needed a little sugar in her diet to make her see the light. That selfish thin friend of yours that loves to get men's attention by her looks? Yea I'm sure she doesn't eat brownies either. And for some reason they just feel like they gotta share their looks with the world! So forget about most of them being faithful! LOL.... Except for my BFF, she is a fatty trapped in a model body. Seriously, she eats more than I do and never gains a pound. Well even people like my BFF are happy because they eat brownies! They are just lucky that they can't gain a pound!

I know I'm not the smallest girl, and weight has always been an issue, or topic, or a thought in my everyday life. It kind of sucks because it is a never ending dilemma. I really just want to sing and perform and inspire people in a positive way. Something that many artists today aren't doing to our pop culture. But I want everyone to know that no one is perfect and you can be happy starting today. Just look at all the positive things about yourself and things that you have accomplished as a person. I can be negative too at times but it is just a phase. I want to design, I want to sing, I want to be on stage, I want to model and be everything that a so called 'thin' person can do. And I know I can. I will be another woman making a change in this world for a positive effect. I do want to be thinner but not because it will make the world happier. I want to do it for me and for my comfort. I don't want to be a size 2 either.

Here is me before and after losing 30lbs. Not 'model' skinny but 'BEAUTIFUL' thin

Besides... why would you want to be the one with a 'HOT' body? Men just want to sleep with you and fool around. I rather be 'BEAUTIFUL' and be the one that men want to fall in love with :)

My inspiration, the beautiful Crystal Renn

Her famous ad

New Year's Resolution

It's better late than never I say. It's January 3rd and I'm only a couple of days behind but I'm here. I'm also coming down with a cold. What a great way to start the year! So many things yet still not enough things have happened this past year in 2009. My BFF/partner were able to get our accessory line "Truly Glamorous" into a store called "Tresors of Naples" a couple of months ago, I had an amazing trip to NY during the Fall with a few friends, I've become obsessed with vegetarian sushi rolls, and I have yet to see the man that took my heart to Paris with him. I think it's been about a year and 4 months.

I just turned 24 January 1st. I had a wonderful birthday dinner with way too many people for me to handle. I'm never doing that again! I think next time I'm going to have to split this into 3 and have a birthday breakfast, birthday lunch, and birthday dinner. I felt so bad that I wasn't able to spend time with everyone at the table. I could tell that some of my friends got a bit bored. Others went missing and never showed up, or texted to say that they couldn't make it. I wasn't upset, it just showed me their real personalities and what is important. And on top of that I think the waiter hated our party of 25+ and told us that we still owed him $20 more. Counted the money 3 times before we handed it to him. It was correct, and he was wrong. By the way, yeaaa I made my own birthday cake! Not only did it look fabulous, but it tasted YUMMYYYY!!!!

Ok, so I definitely went wayyyy out of what I really wanted to talk about which was a New Year's Resolution. Hmmm... there are just so many things I want to do and accomplish. Of course the cliche NYR of

*My goal weight

*Getting Truly Glamorous into a 2nd store

*Visiting NYC

*Paris

*Write more songs and perform more than 2009

Yea, so that is all I can really think about for now. Well I think I'm going to go blow my nose into a kleenex. Oh yea, look at these pics too!

Me and my amazing birthday cake!

A picture from the NY trip. Yeaaa i think i definitely looked like a real New Yorker

And some deliciously weird cookies that my BFF and I made for late night movies